the Chernobyl disaster, and other things.
A personal blog post on Chernobyl? Well.....
30 years ago, April 26, 1986, The Chernobyl nuclear plant in the Soviet Union melted down. I am no scientist, so don't know the term. Sorry. They evacuated the area, and essentially built a huge concrete dome over the site, to keep the radiation in. How many died doing this will probably never be known.
It was also on that Saturday that I was married to Darleen Yvonne Glaspie. This would have been 30 years today. I thought it would last forever. Not on that day, but a year and change later, we were sealed, and our son Brandon was sealed to us. in the Dallas Temple.
Seventeen years later, after three job moves, five children, and all sorts of other stuff, it ended. I guess that I should just leave it at that, and after passing our eighteenth anniversary, having already been separated for nearly a year, we were divorced. She had already left the church, and the divorce was finalized in July of 2004.
Since then, I have remarried, and Darleen passed away in 2008. For whatever reason, these things happened, and it wasn't the end of the world, though I thought it was in 2003.
Now, looking back, I am truly grateful for my kids, all of them. None are perfect, I can admit, but they are good kids at heart, and I love each of them. I often times wonder what I could have done differently, but while I may wonder that, I don't let it strangle me like I used to.
For the last eleven years, I have been blessed to have my beautiful Sarah Beth in my life. and even though we are separated by miles, I feel as close to her as ever. I long for the day when my time here ends and I can come home permanently. There was opportunity to return to KC, I will admit, but I couldn't. And we both felt that even considering it was the wrong thing to do. That doesn't help the pain of separation, but, feeling confident in this decision, we can live with it. She has truly been supportive of me, and no price can be assessed for that support. Yup, priceless.
I miss my chorale friends. and singing with such a wonderful group, led by such a wonderful director. How I long to rejoin them.
It would be nice to know the why on being here, not just that it is the right place for me now. I must learn to be content with that, and the occasional glimpses that I see of the why. Who knows where this path will lead, I just know with whom it goes, even if apart right now.
Very little of this is news to those that were around. I haven't had that hard of a road, when I think of the challenges that some have had. Close friends who have truly been challenged, and overcome. I salute them, and love their strength. Their strength and example have helped me greatly, knowing that I can never return that favor. Some may not even know the strength they gave me.
Since the Chernobyl accident, a whole new eco-system has grown up around the dome. Wildlife, and plants have returned, and overrun much of the surrounding wasteland. Google the images, they are truly amazing. I write, knowing that even in the darkest night, there surely is a dawn, and given time, beauty can surround even the most broken things..
Amazing where your mind can go, when you look back.
30 years ago, April 26, 1986, The Chernobyl nuclear plant in the Soviet Union melted down. I am no scientist, so don't know the term. Sorry. They evacuated the area, and essentially built a huge concrete dome over the site, to keep the radiation in. How many died doing this will probably never be known.
It was also on that Saturday that I was married to Darleen Yvonne Glaspie. This would have been 30 years today. I thought it would last forever. Not on that day, but a year and change later, we were sealed, and our son Brandon was sealed to us. in the Dallas Temple.
Seventeen years later, after three job moves, five children, and all sorts of other stuff, it ended. I guess that I should just leave it at that, and after passing our eighteenth anniversary, having already been separated for nearly a year, we were divorced. She had already left the church, and the divorce was finalized in July of 2004.
Since then, I have remarried, and Darleen passed away in 2008. For whatever reason, these things happened, and it wasn't the end of the world, though I thought it was in 2003.
Now, looking back, I am truly grateful for my kids, all of them. None are perfect, I can admit, but they are good kids at heart, and I love each of them. I often times wonder what I could have done differently, but while I may wonder that, I don't let it strangle me like I used to.
For the last eleven years, I have been blessed to have my beautiful Sarah Beth in my life. and even though we are separated by miles, I feel as close to her as ever. I long for the day when my time here ends and I can come home permanently. There was opportunity to return to KC, I will admit, but I couldn't. And we both felt that even considering it was the wrong thing to do. That doesn't help the pain of separation, but, feeling confident in this decision, we can live with it. She has truly been supportive of me, and no price can be assessed for that support. Yup, priceless.
I miss my chorale friends. and singing with such a wonderful group, led by such a wonderful director. How I long to rejoin them.
It would be nice to know the why on being here, not just that it is the right place for me now. I must learn to be content with that, and the occasional glimpses that I see of the why. Who knows where this path will lead, I just know with whom it goes, even if apart right now.
Very little of this is news to those that were around. I haven't had that hard of a road, when I think of the challenges that some have had. Close friends who have truly been challenged, and overcome. I salute them, and love their strength. Their strength and example have helped me greatly, knowing that I can never return that favor. Some may not even know the strength they gave me.
Since the Chernobyl accident, a whole new eco-system has grown up around the dome. Wildlife, and plants have returned, and overrun much of the surrounding wasteland. Google the images, they are truly amazing. I write, knowing that even in the darkest night, there surely is a dawn, and given time, beauty can surround even the most broken things..
Amazing where your mind can go, when you look back.
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