one year.
I had such high expectations of myself, and as is so typical, failed miserably.
Heard today that after losing quality people (and me) because of the save pay situation, the FAA has increased the save pay time to 5 years. That would have gotten me to 30, but two more years living alone in Twin would have been hard for me.
I do hope to relearn how to play the piano this year, as I didn't this past one. I will take lessons, rather than try to teach myself. If I can find a teacher willing to put up with me.
My light has not been bright at all this Christmas season. I have tried in small ways to shine for others, but I feel that I have not.
A year ago, I was in Rexburg, planning on waiting for the storm to go through, and the roads to be cleared.
And now, we focus on Bethlehem, and the birth of the King. The time of year of the actual birth isn't important. Maybe the Christians took up the winter solstice, as it represents a time of new birth, when the days start getting longer. Maybe symbols of immortality, like the evergreen boughs, and trees are symbolic of Christ living after death. It isn't when we celebrate, it is WHAT we celebrate. That from before the world was formed, the Lord made flesh was anticipated, foretold, and eagerly awaited, and that that time had arrived!! His birth was confirmation that the prophecies of the Messiah were true. That the King should be born into such humble circumstances, speaks to the example that He set for us. Let him who would lead serve his fellow men, was his teaching. He not only didn't ask his disciples to do anything he wouldn't, he did what none of them, indeed, none of us, COULD. The Atonement of the Savior caps the fulfillment of His plan for us. Because of Him we can return!
I have rarely been the disciple that I know that I should be, or that I could be. There were times when it seemed I didn't even try. I see those things now in the light of His love for me. I know that no matter what I do, He continues to love me. No matter what. Even when I do not live up to His example of loving others, I know that His love is infinite, and that when I try to improve, it is enough. As I write this, I struggle to find the words. I know, that probably sound odd to anyone that knows me.
I feel so constrained by my lack of faith in interacting with others. That is what it is, though some might call it a fear. Yeah, me. It is even harder to interact with people that I know, but not well, than with people that I don't know. Man I am messed up.
This Christmas feels completely different than past Christmases. So many Christmases that I remember have to do with family, and extended family. This year, we are meeting at my niece's house for pie and games, Christmas night. I am looking forward to that! Other than that, two days before Christmas, and nothing planned or even discussed.
Tomorrow, the last singing thing of the year. Just singing in groups, so while I will give 100% of what I have, it is unlikely that I will be at 100%. Like everything else, I know that my praise will be acceptable to my king, because I do know that I will sing with all my heart.
Heard today that after losing quality people (and me) because of the save pay situation, the FAA has increased the save pay time to 5 years. That would have gotten me to 30, but two more years living alone in Twin would have been hard for me.
I do hope to relearn how to play the piano this year, as I didn't this past one. I will take lessons, rather than try to teach myself. If I can find a teacher willing to put up with me.
My light has not been bright at all this Christmas season. I have tried in small ways to shine for others, but I feel that I have not.
A year ago, I was in Rexburg, planning on waiting for the storm to go through, and the roads to be cleared.
And now, we focus on Bethlehem, and the birth of the King. The time of year of the actual birth isn't important. Maybe the Christians took up the winter solstice, as it represents a time of new birth, when the days start getting longer. Maybe symbols of immortality, like the evergreen boughs, and trees are symbolic of Christ living after death. It isn't when we celebrate, it is WHAT we celebrate. That from before the world was formed, the Lord made flesh was anticipated, foretold, and eagerly awaited, and that that time had arrived!! His birth was confirmation that the prophecies of the Messiah were true. That the King should be born into such humble circumstances, speaks to the example that He set for us. Let him who would lead serve his fellow men, was his teaching. He not only didn't ask his disciples to do anything he wouldn't, he did what none of them, indeed, none of us, COULD. The Atonement of the Savior caps the fulfillment of His plan for us. Because of Him we can return!
I have rarely been the disciple that I know that I should be, or that I could be. There were times when it seemed I didn't even try. I see those things now in the light of His love for me. I know that no matter what I do, He continues to love me. No matter what. Even when I do not live up to His example of loving others, I know that His love is infinite, and that when I try to improve, it is enough. As I write this, I struggle to find the words. I know, that probably sound odd to anyone that knows me.
I feel so constrained by my lack of faith in interacting with others. That is what it is, though some might call it a fear. Yeah, me. It is even harder to interact with people that I know, but not well, than with people that I don't know. Man I am messed up.
This Christmas feels completely different than past Christmases. So many Christmases that I remember have to do with family, and extended family. This year, we are meeting at my niece's house for pie and games, Christmas night. I am looking forward to that! Other than that, two days before Christmas, and nothing planned or even discussed.
Tomorrow, the last singing thing of the year. Just singing in groups, so while I will give 100% of what I have, it is unlikely that I will be at 100%. Like everything else, I know that my praise will be acceptable to my king, because I do know that I will sing with all my heart.
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