Tomorrow I go home. for a day or so.
Well.
Tomorrow is day 7 of Staff Week. Or, Day 4 as most reckon time. It is short, ending noonish. We get to have a blessed time off, back on Thursday to prep for Cub weekend. Then the main event. Sunday morning, Week 1. Scout camp begins.
I would be lying to say that the overall enthusiasm that permeated my social media posts leading up to last week have persisted to this day. Lying would be an understatement. I wondered, truthfully, if I would even go back on Thursday. Of course I will, but that is the place that I am in. I won't lie on the Lib, and I won't lie in this place of introspection, or the look within.
From time to time a dark cloud settles over me. It is not one of anger, or really sadness. It is apathy. Severe apathy. To me, this feeling is far more dangerous than a feeling of anger, or sadness It has an affect on those around me, after all, people notice when I am not my cheery happy self, (I know, dear reader, you are saying, who the heck thinks you are happy Phil?, All things are relative) Apathy breeds neglect, which is very hazardous, and can cause severe problems. Let me state that I am very professional when it comes to my job, and I never let anything cross my work. That was true before and it is certainly true now. The responsibilities I carry now no longer involve people in aluminum and composite tubes, it involves young men, and, this year, for the first time, young women, and their leaders. Those are heavy responsibilities.
A smile can have an effect that ranges beyond just the moment. A kind word, particularly if someone is in distress, depressed, or has just had a really, really, rotten day, can, at a minimum, lift someone up, even if it is just for a moment. It is so critical, that when we can, we need to "put on the happy face", and be what others expect us to be.
Warning! Cuidado! Depression and other mental illnesses are real. They are debilitating, and can have long lasting effects. Telling someone to just "suck it up" or "snap out of it" is not appropriate, and can hurt someone suffering from depression.
Moving on, like I said, this is a cloud that I deal with from time to time. I get through it, I know that it happens, and I can manage it publicly. The issue, however, is that my reserves get spent very quickly, and down time, always a necessity for a severe introvert like me is even more important. Guess what is in limited supply, particularly as a manager? Yeah.
I needed to write this, because while camp staff is hard work, and is not easy, I enjoyed it start to finish last year. I know that I will break out of this funk sooner rather than later. Try though I may, some have noticed that I am not happy as can be. I am tired. I am fatigued. Yeah, old, I get it. It is more than that. No worries. I plow forward. Again, as I write it is just about 15 hours, and nearly half of that will be down time. Will go home, and get recharged, and back to work on Thursday.
For those that are depressed, thinking that they are worthless, and contemplating harming themselves, may I suggest contacting the Suicide hotline at 1-800-273-8255 or
https://suicidepreventionlifeline.org/
they have all sorts of resources, including a chat line.
What do yo know? I am feeling better already.
Tomorrow is day 7 of Staff Week. Or, Day 4 as most reckon time. It is short, ending noonish. We get to have a blessed time off, back on Thursday to prep for Cub weekend. Then the main event. Sunday morning, Week 1. Scout camp begins.
I would be lying to say that the overall enthusiasm that permeated my social media posts leading up to last week have persisted to this day. Lying would be an understatement. I wondered, truthfully, if I would even go back on Thursday. Of course I will, but that is the place that I am in. I won't lie on the Lib, and I won't lie in this place of introspection, or the look within.
From time to time a dark cloud settles over me. It is not one of anger, or really sadness. It is apathy. Severe apathy. To me, this feeling is far more dangerous than a feeling of anger, or sadness It has an affect on those around me, after all, people notice when I am not my cheery happy self, (I know, dear reader, you are saying, who the heck thinks you are happy Phil?, All things are relative) Apathy breeds neglect, which is very hazardous, and can cause severe problems. Let me state that I am very professional when it comes to my job, and I never let anything cross my work. That was true before and it is certainly true now. The responsibilities I carry now no longer involve people in aluminum and composite tubes, it involves young men, and, this year, for the first time, young women, and their leaders. Those are heavy responsibilities.
A smile can have an effect that ranges beyond just the moment. A kind word, particularly if someone is in distress, depressed, or has just had a really, really, rotten day, can, at a minimum, lift someone up, even if it is just for a moment. It is so critical, that when we can, we need to "put on the happy face", and be what others expect us to be.
Warning! Cuidado! Depression and other mental illnesses are real. They are debilitating, and can have long lasting effects. Telling someone to just "suck it up" or "snap out of it" is not appropriate, and can hurt someone suffering from depression.
Moving on, like I said, this is a cloud that I deal with from time to time. I get through it, I know that it happens, and I can manage it publicly. The issue, however, is that my reserves get spent very quickly, and down time, always a necessity for a severe introvert like me is even more important. Guess what is in limited supply, particularly as a manager? Yeah.
I needed to write this, because while camp staff is hard work, and is not easy, I enjoyed it start to finish last year. I know that I will break out of this funk sooner rather than later. Try though I may, some have noticed that I am not happy as can be. I am tired. I am fatigued. Yeah, old, I get it. It is more than that. No worries. I plow forward. Again, as I write it is just about 15 hours, and nearly half of that will be down time. Will go home, and get recharged, and back to work on Thursday.
For those that are depressed, thinking that they are worthless, and contemplating harming themselves, may I suggest contacting the Suicide hotline at 1-800-273-8255 or
https://suicidepreventionlifeline.org/
they have all sorts of resources, including a chat line.
What do yo know? I am feeling better already.
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