Which way do I go? Follow the light that's in you.
I am surrounded by emotions and feelings that I don't know how to interpret. Last week, our ward had a funeral for one of the most faithful, and diligent servants of the Lord in it. Sunday night, the First Counselor in the Bishopric's son was laid down for a nap, and passed away. The funeral is tomorrow.
This morning, a former Bishop, whose health has been failing for sometime now, had breakfast, and was resting, and just passed away. Just last night, I was wondering if there would be one more. Alas.
Already, our Bishop, who has served for less than a year, will have presided over six funerals. With numerous members in their 80s and 70s, it is quite likely that that won't be all. Deaths are always sad, but an eighteen month old? No parent should have to bury a child, especially one so young and innocent. Trusting in God in such a circumstance is not easy. but the knowledge that that child is sealed to the family for all eternity does provide comfort.
As humans, we grieve, even knowing that all will be resurrected, and live again. It is part of the mortal experience.
So, what does that have to do with me? I think about how our time on earth is so short, whether a toddler with an untimely death, or an 82 year old man that has seen much, in eternity it cannot even be quantified. I have wasted so much of mine. No matter, to look backwards is wrong. to worry about what could have been is like Lot's wife, Where is our focus? Forward? or Backwards? I am looking ahead, or trying to, too often, I look back.
This is a pivotal year for me. In December, I will have achieved 28 years with my employer, and choices need to be made. I could be a jerk, and wait to the last minute, but in reality, in the next moth or two, will be when we decide.
Part of me would love to find a piece of land off the beaten path, well within the kill zone of the Yellowstone volcano, but where people tend to leave people alone. Soda Springs, Freedom, sort of like that. Not likely to happen. Too anchored in Kansas. Nice to think on though.
I do have bids out, from Tucson to Las Vegas, to Oklahoma City, to Minneapolis. Not sure that is what I should do, still waiting. Highly unlikely to remain in Twin. That is all that I know. Well, not all. I have seen too many people stay too long working, only to die within a very short time of retirement. No one knows when we will be called home, but it will happen. That is nearly certain.
Are you looking forward?
I wonder who knows what the title is from.
This morning, a former Bishop, whose health has been failing for sometime now, had breakfast, and was resting, and just passed away. Just last night, I was wondering if there would be one more. Alas.
Already, our Bishop, who has served for less than a year, will have presided over six funerals. With numerous members in their 80s and 70s, it is quite likely that that won't be all. Deaths are always sad, but an eighteen month old? No parent should have to bury a child, especially one so young and innocent. Trusting in God in such a circumstance is not easy. but the knowledge that that child is sealed to the family for all eternity does provide comfort.
As humans, we grieve, even knowing that all will be resurrected, and live again. It is part of the mortal experience.
So, what does that have to do with me? I think about how our time on earth is so short, whether a toddler with an untimely death, or an 82 year old man that has seen much, in eternity it cannot even be quantified. I have wasted so much of mine. No matter, to look backwards is wrong. to worry about what could have been is like Lot's wife, Where is our focus? Forward? or Backwards? I am looking ahead, or trying to, too often, I look back.
This is a pivotal year for me. In December, I will have achieved 28 years with my employer, and choices need to be made. I could be a jerk, and wait to the last minute, but in reality, in the next moth or two, will be when we decide.
Part of me would love to find a piece of land off the beaten path, well within the kill zone of the Yellowstone volcano, but where people tend to leave people alone. Soda Springs, Freedom, sort of like that. Not likely to happen. Too anchored in Kansas. Nice to think on though.
I do have bids out, from Tucson to Las Vegas, to Oklahoma City, to Minneapolis. Not sure that is what I should do, still waiting. Highly unlikely to remain in Twin. That is all that I know. Well, not all. I have seen too many people stay too long working, only to die within a very short time of retirement. No one knows when we will be called home, but it will happen. That is nearly certain.
Are you looking forward?
I wonder who knows what the title is from.
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