Now what

So, day two of being unemployed.  While retirement began on Saturday, yesterday was day one of not being at work when I otherwise would have been.  Thought about work as I was driving twelve hours.  Realized that it didn't matter.   Got to Kansas, and checked my work email.  No access.  Good.  That will be a hard habit to break.

Today I unloaded most of the truck.  I went and walked at the track like I had done for ten years before leaving.  So what was the point?

I won't lie here.  I am feeling a little down.  Partially, I am sure, is because I have no plans.  School, yes, two classes.  But I managed setting up my successor, day to day work, and two classes, so two classes, and nothing else?  Boring.

Renewing my relationship with Sarah.  We spoke daily for the time I was gone.  We visited frequently, but it is not the same as being there for each other.  I look forward to that time.  Of becoming closer spiritually and emotionally.  I have missed her.

I will need some time to reinforce my testimony.  No worries, but truthfully, I still feel that I am less in tune spiritually than I need to be.  I am still unclear about the whole three year sojourn.  I know it was the right thing to do, but need to learn the faith necessary to accept the rightness of the action, while not clearly seeing the purpose.  I know, for most people that seems so inconsequential, but for me, with a lot of time, I think a lot.

As I think about where this blog could go now that I am not alone, I will probably put some more feelings, and life things.  Mostly things of the spirit, but since it is my writing, it could be anything.

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